Lately I have not been the ideal parent to you – allowing my overwhelming emotions to control my behaviour and reacting on automatic and for that I am sorry. I am sorry for hurting your feelings, making you feel dismissed and a burden when you were just being yourself. We all have our bad days, you included and it’s during those times when you need me to be especially receptive to you. You deserve an apology because no one should be made to take on anyone else’s emotional issues, least of all a child who can’t understand why they are being treated differently suddenly. Sometimes I forget that you have real human feelings too that need to be validated and embraced whether they are perceived as being positive or negative. I am going to make a conscious effort to deal with my issues so that I can parent you the way you deserve. Thank you for forgiving me so easily for my embarrassing behaviour. Know that you’re mother loves you unconditionally too and that every day you help her become a better person just by being wonderfully you. 
June 07, 2011
Apologies To My Son
Lately I have not been the ideal parent to you – allowing my overwhelming emotions to control my behaviour and reacting on automatic and for that I am sorry. I am sorry for hurting your feelings, making you feel dismissed and a burden when you were just being yourself. We all have our bad days, you included and it’s during those times when you need me to be especially receptive to you. You deserve an apology because no one should be made to take on anyone else’s emotional issues, least of all a child who can’t understand why they are being treated differently suddenly. Sometimes I forget that you have real human feelings too that need to be validated and embraced whether they are perceived as being positive or negative. I am going to make a conscious effort to deal with my issues so that I can parent you the way you deserve. Thank you for forgiving me so easily for my embarrassing behaviour. Know that you’re mother loves you unconditionally too and that every day you help her become a better person just by being wonderfully you. 
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Beautiful and honest! Sometimes its hard to admit when we are wrong, especially to those that mean the most to us <3
ReplyDeleteYour son is lucky to have such a brave mama! Apologies and ownership of mistakes so hard but they are the catalysts for positive change and deep growth. I admire your strength :)
ReplyDelete"Shame is the gateway to grace" - Jonas Blane (The Unit T.V series). I suppose being ashamed of one's actions is the first step to making the necessary changes to rise above that behaviour. I've been real frazzled lately and this has been affecting all aspects of my life but it is my son who really made me realize just how lost I was. Children are little little wise gurus.
ReplyDeleteThis is why I must remind myself multiple times everyday, patience.
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