My Child Within

This week after a requested ultrasound to locate my placenta, I also decided to find out the sex of my child out of curiosity. This was the first ultrasound I’ve had, since I chose to forgo them completely during the pregnancy with my son. So I was a little nervous alongside my excitement. The technician firing up the ultrasound was excited as well because according to her, it is more difficult to clearly see a baby in utero if the mother has excessive belly fat, which I do not, so the picture would be really clear. Firing it up we could clearly see my little baby laying sideways in my womb, face pointing upwards towards the placenta (anterior position: on the front wall of my uterus) with their arms bent on their chest and their legs in the typical foetal position. We could clearly see the spine, the brain, and even individual toes. What was most amazing is that we could even see the tongue moving in and out repeatedly, licking the placenta up above! We had a good giggle over that.

 

Then the technician asked me what my guess was as to the sex, and I replied that I felt that it was a daughter, based on my intuition and the pregnancy dream I had only days ago. She smiled and told me that I was right! Because of how clear the image was, we could clearly tell that there was no extra dangly bits between the legs, and that the umbilical cord was resting on her belly connected to the above placenta. You could clearly see the profile of her face and the structure of her mouth and throat. It was a very interesting experience. 

Coming home I was overjoyed that I would have both a son and a daughter. It also struck me as interesting how Leo had insisted for months that he was going to get a little sister. Maybe he got a heads up before I did! I know that I had been asking the baby for weeks to show itself to me in my dreams like Leo had with no response. About a week before the scheduled ultrasound, I spoke to my baby telling them I would appreciate them telling me themselves what their sex was instead of me finding out from the ultrasound and soon after I finally got my vision dream of a daughter. It was a very simple one, as I was just walking to the store with my son holding my hand and I had a young baby in a sling wrap on my hip that was a little girl. Nothing fancy, but clear enough to show me what I was looking for. 

That night I started going over my list of girl names that consisted of only two names now after much eliminating from my monster list. I was torn between these two names for awhile but there was one that I kept coming back to and it just felt right. So I have decided already on what to name my daughter and being able to think of her with this name makes her more real to me somehow. It also makes me that much more excited about her upcoming birth in January. Now I can focus my energy on preparing our labour and birth together, as well as the supplies I will need for her care afterwards.

The fun really begins!